random

twenty two - taylor swift
hall of fame - the script
cun saja - sleeq
titanium - sia
six degrees of separation - the script
breakeven - the script
red - taylor swift
end of the road - mgk
drama king - muh
lagu untukmu - muh
invincible - mgk

p/s : bring me a glass of water please *british accent*

read, weep, get up and move on.

To me:
That moment when i have to beg to myself to stop crying and tell myself to "BE STRONG."
I believe one day everything will be okay.
Sometimes the person i love just doesn't understand how much i love them.
I must stay strong and make them wonder how i'm still smiling.
Sometimes it is better to be alone so nobody can hurt me.
I'm moving on from what has hurt me in the past.
Sometimes my heart needs more time to accept what my mind already knows.


To you:
My trust, once you get it, it's priceless, but once you lose it, you are useless.
When a girl is silence, she's either over-thinking, tired of waiting, falling apart, crying inside or all of them.
If you don't call me all day, i understand. When you don't text me all day, i understand. When i stop giving a fuck about you, i hope you understand.
Don't fuck with my feelings just because you're unsure of your own.
Silence is a girl loudest cry, you know she's really hurt when she's ignoring you.
You had me at hello, lost me at goodbye, and everything in between was nothing but a lie.
A girl doesn't need to tell you straight up how she feels, it's written all over the way she behaves when you're around.
You said you never wanted to see me hurt, did you close your eyes then when i cried?
Don't make promises you can't keep.

General:
Be yourself no matter what, God made you the way you are for a reason. Besides, an original always worth more than a copy.
A true friend is the one you can go months without talking to and when you are reconnect nothing has changed.
The heartbreaking moment when you find out the person you love the most has found someone else to love.
If someone came up to you and handed you a book and you started to read it and realized it was a book about your entire life, would you read it until the end?
It's sad when people who gave you the best memories become a memory.

p/s: the script - hall of fame.

stronger II

Assalamualaikum w.b.t dan salam tiga pagi.
Alhamdulillah, tamat sudah semester dua.
Semester yang penuh dengan mental torture.
Dari satu, satu, masalah datang dan pergi.
First kes ainul.
Second kes farhan.
Third kes acai.
Fourth kes hidung aku.
Fifth kes farhan lagi.
Ya Allah, dugaan yang teramat.
Dan aku berjaya mengharunginya.

Aku tak faham kau nak apa sebenarnya. 
Confused.
Very.
Kau nak kita jadi kawan?
Kita memang kawan selama ni.
Bagi aku, kau kawan yang paling teramat sangat sungguh special.
Aku dah buka pintu hati aku untuk kau kenal dunia aku.
Dan kau berjaya tawan, beri kebahagiaan, tunggang terbalikkan dunia aku.
Bravo.
Aku dah mula sayang dekat kau. 
Benda paling utama, my ego.
Aku sanggup turunkan ego aku untuk kau semata mata.
Saat, detik, ketika, waktu dan masa itu.
Kita bukan kawan.
Kita dah lebih.
Bagi aku, declaration tak penting.
Yang penting, saat kita berani membenarkan suatu yang baru masuk dalam hidup kita.
Suatu ciptaan yang sangat asing bagi kita.
Aku telah berani menerima kau menjadi sebahagiaan hidup aku.
Kau?
Aku pun rasa begitu.
Just for a few moment.
Rupanya jauh panggang dari api.
Aku silap.
Marah.
Sedih.
Keliru.
Sakit.
Hati kau semakin hari semakin jauh untuk aku.
Hati aku semakin hari semakin dekat untuk kau.
Nampaknya kita berlari berlainan arah.
Aku sesat.
Kau dah jumpa penyelamat.
Cantik.
Ayu.
Sopan.
Bahagiakah?
Wallahualam.
Saat kau tembak aku tanpa belas kasihan.
Aku jatuh.
Aku bangkit semula.
Menjadi aku yang baru.
Hati berkecai seribu darab sepuluh kuasa dua puluh dua.
Aku simen balik.
Jadi hati batu.
Puas hati kau?
Tembok ego aku yang aku runtuhkan demi kau.
Aku bina semula dengan tekad dan azam yang baru.
Fresh from the soul of mine.
The ego of mine is way more higher than before.
Puas hati kau lagi?
Kau halau aku.
Suruh aku pergi.
Bagi kau, aku ni penghalang kejayaan kau.
Akulah penyebab kau lalai, alpa, hanyut dalam dunia ciptaan kau sendiri.
Really?
I dont think so.
So, kenapa still terhegeh hegeh cari aku lagi?
Why?
What do you really want actually?
Dah buang aku macam sampah.
Nak kutip balik?
Kau letak standard dalam hubungan kita.
Standard that is way too far from what i thought we were.
Standard kawan.
Let me make things crystal clear.
Friend do not easily say love to each other.
Friend do not frequently say imissyou, iloveyou to each other.
In fact, friend do not have to contact everyday without failed.
Now i know where our standard are.
Thanks a lot friend.

You are dead to me since twelve april twenty thirteen.
Zero one zero two hours.

"The strongest person is the one who can adapt the fastest in all situation." -ayah-
"Experience make you wiser and stronger" -mama-

May Allah bless all of us.
Aminn.