S O R R Y

dear paww.

i'm truly sorry from the deepest inside of me. never meant to hurt you in any kind of ways. i dont know why but i felt guilty seeing you hurt eventhough you pretend to be happy in front of me. i've just noticed yesterday. about that song. yes. the song that you gave me. it felt like something just hit my face so hard and suddenly realize that the song that i gave him was the song that you gave me two months earlier. ouchh man! i'm so fucked off.

paww. again i am so sorry. i dont want to lose our friendship. i know i am the first girl who are so close to you. sorry that i kinda give you hope. shit i feel so bad right now. i want you to know that i really dont have the intention to game you or take advantage upon your kindness. i'm not playing with you nor your feelings. i want to be your friend who you can tell all your stories, your days, your whatevernots. and yet i dont want to create you as my enemy. yes. maybe things are not gonna be the same again. as it never would. and about this guilt. how can i make amends to this guilt of mine towards you?

btw. we both once said that ''this couple things is such a wasted" kan? see? at least we are on the same track about something. hehe. paww. i'll always pray for your happiness. always pray that you will meet a way much more better girl than me. so you can love her with all your heart. knowing me is part of your life. and you still have a long way to go. 

with this. i want to thank you because you are my friend and still be. thank you for your concern about me. thank you for being with me during my ups and downs especially when i'm being introvert. and lastly thank you for being matured as i know you are a big boy and big boy can handle things wisely. hopefully things are gonna be fine between us. at least when we are good. one of my problems is solved. 

paww. would you be happy for me? everything happens for reasons. and knowing you also has its own reasons. you are my friend. and i love you.

lots of love, lee.

p/s: rude - magic

paww :/

paww. i'm sorry.

lagu yang kau bagi tu rupanya is lagu tu.
aku tak perasan pun.
maaf maaf.

dekat dua bulan lebih kau bagi.
demm. aku rasa bersalah. serious shit.

btw, sorry again sebab dah lama tak contact kau.
mesti kau ingat aku dah lupa kawan kan?
hurm hurmm.

paww, i'm truly sorry. doesnt mean to hurt you in any ways.

sincerely, lee.

apa aku rasa

kau nak sangat stalk kan? 

haaa padan muka wa bagi. 

padan dengan muka lu.

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bila dah ada kat tempat tinggi tinggi ni

kalau jatuh memang kena setepek!

wa tak tipu. sakit bhaiii.

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sakit doe. aku rasa

sakit.

kenapa eh?

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aku happy kau dah ada relationship.

iye. aku happy untuk kau.

cerita kita tu simpan sendiri sudaa.

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aku tanak ada kena mengena dengan ex kau.

mahupun ex sape sape.

kenapa perlu? jawab ah.

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aku rasa kita bergerak laju sangat.

jalan atas angin kan?

memang cenggitu ye dak?

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takde sape boleh jumpa hati aku.

mungkin aku dah bagi kau jiwa aku.

itupun suku je.

if nak mintak balik, buruk siku tak?

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bila aku baca balik post lama lama.

aku sengih sorang sorang.

nostalgia bhaii. aku tak pernah lupakan kau pun.

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ye. ego aku memang tinggi.

dan masih tinggi.

kau sanggup panjat?

dinding dinding yang aku bina tu.

sanggup? 

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let say aku yang problematic.

kau nak ke stay dengan aku?

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haaa sebab tu lah aku takde

twitter !

kahkahkahkahkahhh

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dah balik kelantan tu.

nanti kim salam lah kat awek.

cakap selamat hari raya sekali

bagi pihak aku. cehh hahahaa

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hopefully takde pape.

takde pape lah. takde pape.

everything gonna be fine.

just fine.

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aku boleh tipu orang lain.

tapi aku takboleh tipu diri aku sendiri.

sama macam kau.

kau boleh tipu aku.

tapi bukan diri kau sendiri.

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cenggini lah.

"please dont be a disaster" AL.

*tu yang apa aku rasa sekarang*

ohh bulan

ohh bulan.

kita macam belangkas sejak dua tahun dulu.

cepat betul masa bertiup.

dan sem ni.

sem terakhir aku dengan kau.

sedih. jujur aku cakap. 

aku sedih.

siapa nak jogging sama sama dengan aku?

siapa nak dengar cerita merepek aku?

siapa nak jadi bahu untuk aku menangis?

siapa nak kongsi ketawa dengan aku?

sem depan.

hanya aku.

aku sorang kena berperang.

at least sem ni. 

aku ada kau.

bulan.

tuhan. kuatkan dia sepertimana kau kuatkan aku.

aiman zhafree

tuan empunya nama.
kadang kadang aku rasa dia wujud.
dan kadang kadang tidak.
disebalik aiman zhafree.
ada seorang lagi.
dia.
dia telah hadir dalam hidup aku.
dalam tempoh dua minggu.
setakat ini.
selamat berkenalan.
alif fahmi aziz.