leap year

sayang. selamat berkenalan selama dua ratus tiga puluh tujuh hari.
tapi sebab esok tiada. makanya. kita cipta harini untuk esok.
stay with me. hold on to me.

#shinkansenlipstickmerah

i love you.

if you miss me. look up at the sky. because we live under the same sky.

watermelon

its been a long time since i bake watermelon cookies.

suddenly craving for watermelon.

ice cold chilly watermelon.

watermelon juice.

and dunkin donuts. ahhhhhhh.

saya ada pet baruuuu

alif fahmi is my meerkat manor. hehehe. nyomel lah sayang ni.

to my black, oppsss not so black meerkat manor.

haiii sayanggg *flying kiss* *lelambai gaya datin alia* tengok bola lettew. while text dengan wife you kan? typical alif. soooo how's jengka? orang sayang jengka memang balik awal. kihkihkih. sayang. i love you. i menang. yessss! sayang. kek you tu. i think i ta buat lah. raw materials ta cukup tadi i tengok. nak beli. kedai tutup sudah dong. next time okay i'll bake for you?

sayanggg. i promise. namo minta lion dah. nanti kita beli baru okay? hehe. biarlah dekat jantan tak guna tu. sayanggggg. buat meerkat manor sikit. *giggles* lawak laaaa. semalam you buat. i terbayang lagi. haaa boleh buat dalam kelas. nanti i na panggil you meerkat. meerkat ohhh meerkat.

sayangggggggggg. jumpa esok in shaa Allah. jangan lupa makan esok pagi. promise? i dah satu round usha af,az. lepas ni na usha afa, then alif, then *adalah rahsia* hehehehe. i love you sayang. i love you to the moon and never coming back. infinity!!

lots of love, your awesome shinkansen.

p/s: i miss you *gayaaliffahmi*

p/s/s: one last time. baby, do the meerkat manor please? *mukacomel*

over

aku pernah kenal dengan mamat ni. dia ex aku actually. benda ni jadi tujuh tahun lepas tak silap aku.

aku rapat dengan dia pun sebab coincidence kot. dia text aku. then aku pun layan. zaman jahil kan? dalam sebulan dua kenal. tetiba dia cakap "kau ni over lah."

aku pun macam "over? kenapa?"

"yela. takpayah la call aku banyak kali sampai tengah malam."

aku diam. terkejut. since then. aku sangat berhati hati nak kenal dengan orang. especially lelaki. nanti cakap aku over lagi. macam tu pun kira over ke?

after mamat tu cakap macam tu. aku dah tak rapat dah dengan dia. and he did something really bad to me. apa yang dia buat tu. lepas dua tahun aku baru tahu. tu pun secara tak sengaja ada friend of mine yang terlepas cakap.

ada pernah. mamat tu add aku kat facebook a few years later. and aku terus block dia sampai sekarang. bila fikir balik. jahil sungguh zaman dulu aku. hahahaha. well. hidup kena belajar kan?

aku taknak jumpa dia. tak ingin pun. urghhh. jijik. geli sia.

#2

finishing school

today. done with finishing school. mostly about the x-factor. re-branding ourselves. how to write a good resume. adding with the cover letter. preparation before going to interview. do's and dont's during interview session. follow up after the interview.

maybe sebab dah final year. finishing school aka KI kali macam scary je. because after this dah nak pursue higher level of education. everything going to get serious. further study. need interview. job applicants. need interview. scholarship. need interview. basically. have to sell one self in a very excellent way to the panel in order to be outstanding.

hopefully i can cope with it well. pray and effort.

last but not least. love the one who loves me most.

morning, love

sayang. i know you selalu stalk blog i. 

sooooo "GOOD MORNING my only love life." hehehe.

sayanggg. i namo mandi lagi.

yela yelaaa. you text i cakap "namo gi kelas? mana boleh. nanti taleh jumpe cinta hati alif fahmi."

jommmm siap siap pergi lab.

tata sayangggg!!  ILOVEYOU TO THE MOON AND BACK *hugsandkisses*

emails

currently reading emails from him.
baru berkesempatan nak bukak haaa.
:*

move on

semakin umur meningkat. makin banyak benda kena move on.

move on from past life. move on from past memories. 

nak terkenang benda tu boleh. just sekejap jelah.

masa tak boleh undur pun. sebab hidup kita bergerak ke depan.

kenapa nak stuck at certain frame time sebab tak move on?

waste of time. yang lepas biar lepas.

take it as lessons. dah belajar. jangan buat lagi.

simple. kan?

setiap manusia akan ada one thing yang dia kata dia dah move on.

but deep inside. belum. boleh tipu orang sekeliling. tipu diri sendiri tak mampu.

take one step at a time. 

first. ignore.

second. let go.

third. move on.

fourth. none. 

bila dah move on. takkan heran nya even benda tu jadi depan mata.

sebab dah heartless. immune. 

closure

semua benda yang kita buat mesti ada closure. just depends on closure tu is a good one or a bad one. once dah ada closure. that thing we're involved kira settle. done.

ada aku baca satu buku ni. a girl and a boy decide to make a closure between them. and each other promise that once that got that uncertain feelings. diorang akan letak tangan kanan kat dada kiri. and whisper to themselves "closure".