baca ni hari hari

please stay strong Alia !

p/s: i love you alif fahmi.

classroom II

hey you. yes. you again. i know what you did last few a hours ago. you've been caught red handed. hahhh! see. i told you. if you want to sneak peek at her. make sure no one is looking. no one. not even anyone. got it? btw. i saw you smiled at her. saying the silence i love you to her. how adorable you are. and you also text with her during classes. just make sure not to disturb her studies okay? i'm just wondering. what do you feel when you look at her? 

classroom

hey you. yes you. the one who is always sitting on the first row. someone noticed that you often smiles when you look at her. always turn your chair 45 degree towards her. peek on her from time to time. and you always say 'i love you' without the voice to her when your eyes meet with hers. well. things like that do happen. for two strangers. the end.

sometimes

sometimes. i just wonder. i'm the one who's always make you hurt. how much can you take it? how maximum it could be? i'm sorry. am i good enough for you? it feels like i'm the bad guy. seeing you hurt a lot making me want to distance myself from you. so that things will be normal again. we are too close. too close until i cant see the gap. when there is no gap. once it tear apart. it cant be brought back together. because the damage is huge. another thing is. it feels like i'm being too dependable on you. and i dont like that. i am an independent person. when i met you. i simply let my guards down. it fears me a lot. i dont want to owe people in any aspects. money. time. humanity. and others. but i just did. sometimes. being too happy scares me. because in just any time. you can be crying your lungs out for a million reasons. or just for no reason at all. sometimes. i have to learn back from scratch. basic thing. got to learn how to love myself again. too much negative vibes in me kills me from the inside. like i said. i have my own ego. and i still have it now. whatever. sometimes i hate you. like fucking hate you. at the same time. i dont want you to go. i hope that i wont get bored with you. is letting you in is another mistake? hope not. we both should try harder. i'm hurt. but i'm fine.