S O R R Y

dear paww.

i'm truly sorry from the deepest inside of me. never meant to hurt you in any kind of ways. i dont know why but i felt guilty seeing you hurt eventhough you pretend to be happy in front of me. i've just noticed yesterday. about that song. yes. the song that you gave me. it felt like something just hit my face so hard and suddenly realize that the song that i gave him was the song that you gave me two months earlier. ouchh man! i'm so fucked off.

paww. again i am so sorry. i dont want to lose our friendship. i know i am the first girl who are so close to you. sorry that i kinda give you hope. shit i feel so bad right now. i want you to know that i really dont have the intention to game you or take advantage upon your kindness. i'm not playing with you nor your feelings. i want to be your friend who you can tell all your stories, your days, your whatevernots. and yet i dont want to create you as my enemy. yes. maybe things are not gonna be the same again. as it never would. and about this guilt. how can i make amends to this guilt of mine towards you?

btw. we both once said that ''this couple things is such a wasted" kan? see? at least we are on the same track about something. hehe. paww. i'll always pray for your happiness. always pray that you will meet a way much more better girl than me. so you can love her with all your heart. knowing me is part of your life. and you still have a long way to go. 

with this. i want to thank you because you are my friend and still be. thank you for your concern about me. thank you for being with me during my ups and downs especially when i'm being introvert. and lastly thank you for being matured as i know you are a big boy and big boy can handle things wisely. hopefully things are gonna be fine between us. at least when we are good. one of my problems is solved. 

paww. would you be happy for me? everything happens for reasons. and knowing you also has its own reasons. you are my friend. and i love you.

lots of love, lee.

p/s: rude - magic