stay strong, A.

For what had happened. I can accept it open-heartedly. Someone often said that everything happens for reasons.

Did I put my standard too high that eventually it destroys me? 

To you. I’m truly sorry for what I’ve done. There are things that have been done can’t be undone. You deserve to get what you work for. That’s your effort. My bad not to appreciate it. I promise. I won’t do that anymore.

Sometimes there are things that should be kept to ourselves in order to avoid drastic emotional breakdown. Yes. Keep things to myself. Let it buried inside me.

As for me. I have to struggle even harder. Maybe my effort is not yet enough. Maybe my expectations do not synchronize with my effort. I know. Study smart. For the time being. I am not engaging myself to anyone. Leave me alone. I don’t disturb your hectic life. So don’t disturb mine. 

The jealousy is still there but one must learn to share the happiness of others success. Especially when other person is the person whom we love the most.

Even when I'm sitting next to you. The guilt is still there. Somehow rather I feel ashamed for what I did earlier. From the bottom of my heart, I am sorry.

p/s: stay strong, A. *smile*